I Got Married!

Darn..I must have been out of my freaking mind to get married.

I'm now officially Mrs. Luo.

*sighs*

It was never in my plans to get married this early. Thanks to the unplanned pregnancy. Hey, before you start flaming me, I got to say that I did use protection. In fact, I was on the pill when I got pregnant. I think its heaven's will that I got preggy and thus decided to have the baby and get married.

The wedding was fantastic.

Thanks to all my friends who made it possible. Ya, you know who you are. I love you guys to bits! It was amazing, friends I'd known for a decade helping out with my wedding. The feeling was AMAZING!

Now that the wedding is over, I can't help but miss home. Yes, I've moved into his place but not to worry, I will move back home soon. When my tummy grows bigger and it gets increasing difficult for me to walk. I'm sure my hubby will agree to let me move back home. teehee...

I'll upload my montage when I have the chance. P.S. The internet connection at home sucks!

Tummy Showing?

I think my tummy is showing already...A lady actually offered her seat on the train to me. OMG! I was like...WTF?!

Damn...how am I gonna fit into any wedding gown on my big day?

I hate my manager!

Yes, I hate him. Period.

We nickname him the "Mole". Any guesses as to why we call him that? Okay. Let me explain.

Firstly, he looks moley. lOl...his sort of balding head and his slightly protruding teeth resembles that of a mole. Oh, sorry to mention this - he has got a cleft lip and it showes his teeth even more.

Secondly, he is as deaf as a mole or he pretend to be deaf. Which, is irritating. He can't seem to understand what I am trying to get through his stick skull. Damn brainless. For those of you who don't know, a mole is both deaf and blind.

Thirdly, moles dig tunnels underneath the ground and is seldom seen. My manager is in hiding most of the time and you can never find him when you really need him.

Now, why do I hate him?

1. He shirks from responsibility. Yes, he is trained in the art of Taiqing all the work to all the other people around him, including me. He throws every single thing to me, no matter I am supposed to do it or not. Even stuff that are considered confidential and that I am not supposed to get involved in!

2. He whines. Yes, you heard me right. He whines like a baby. We work on level 6 but he always runs to the pantry at level 4 to whine to the people in the operations department!

3. He procrastinates. Always! Even when we are in the middle of a court case and the lawyer needs his input to fight the case.

4. He pushes all blame to me! For everything big and small, it will be "Ivy this, Ivy that!"

I hate him! Enough said!

Depression

Hormonal changes in me are causing me to go all weird.

I can't seem to be able to control my emotions and will get angry or cry at the smallest stuff. I am losing control over myself.

I think my hubby to be is bearing the brunt of things. I'm becoming more and more outspoken as in voicing out at any injustice or just things that irk me.

Thoughts of the future frighten me so much that I am frustrated. Knowing that what we earn now is not enough for ourselves, not to mention a baby. He tries to comfort me, saying that we can make money slowly. But, can a baby grow up slowly?

I think one may say that I think far too much and worry for things that have not happened but aren't we supposed to think ahead and prepare yourselves for what might happen? Isn't that why people buy insurance or put aside some savings?

He cannot tolerate a two minute talk about our future and tries to avoid the topic. Is this what men are all about? Avoiding the topic and then later claim to be thinking about the matter?

All he makes me feel is that he is avoiding the topic, not thinking about the future and just doing whatever he feels is right. Sighs..

I hate my Father-In-Law!!!

He is the one who taught my hubby to be such a loser!

Such a bad example! I hate him! A man who only knows how to talk and do nothing.

My mother-in-law asked him for money for our wedding, he can say he got no money and yet ask for 5 tables for his friend. What kinda fucker is that?

He aint gonna get no respect from me. You want respect? You gotta earn it. Don't expect to be respected just because you're senior. I tell ya what, Fuck IT!

Stop being a fucker who only knows drinking and gambling. Its time for you to wake up your idea. You wanna be a proud father? Show that you can do it and not be some mother fucker!

I absolutely loathe people like that!

Imagine me living with him? I'm already trying to keep my mouth shut about him. Trying to give him that little respect I have for him as my father-in-law. You reckon I'll keep my mouth shut for long?

Birthday...

A good day today, bright and sunny.

Getting ready now, go find daddy to cut the cake.

Going to bugis later, shopping with my hubby.

He's buying me my birthday pressie. I know it! lols..

Nobody's home today, only me and my boyfriend.

I love him, I love myself and I love the world.

Cheerios!

My Fight Against the Flab Monster!

Day 1.

Curry puff for breakfast.
Vegetarian rice for lunch. Only 1/4 rice, 2 servings of vegetables and 1 egg sunny side up.

Determined to keep dinner very very light. Will have to find a weighing scale and weigh myself.

Have to start stocking my office up with healthy snacks. Fruits...nuts..

Too the stair up to my office on the 6th storey this morning. One step closer to losing weight! Shall start doing the same for lunch and after work. Gambatte!

Fake Eyelashes!

I've always thought that its a hassle to glue on faux eyelashes and that they'd look very fake but hey, I was all wrong!

Last week, I had my first attempt at glueing on fake lashes. I admit that the first time really sucks. I was silly enough not to trim the lashes and I almost glued my eyelids shut. Okay....I'm exaggerating..lols..

After a few failed attempts, I finally realised that I must trim it to the length of my eye before I even try to glue them on. After that, it was all very easy.

I don't like the super long ones that looks super fake. I like the ones that look natural enough for everyday use. I'm still quite a newbie at it though, it takes me 15 minutes to glue them on but I like the way that they "open" my eyes.

I'm now addicted to them and I think I will continue sticking them on! The photos below are some photos with the super long and dolly eyelashes. They look nice in photos but are actually look very fake in real.

Its been 7 months, 1 week, 2 days and counting...

Its feels like only yesterday that we met.
He insists that it was love at first sight for him.
Well...I've got nothing to say to that.

7 months is not long for two people who are looking at spending the rest of their lives together. Its just enough for us to discover our habits, likes and dislikes. We learn how to compromise and how to give in.

Life is a long road and I'm sure there's more to it then we could ever think of. I can only hope that we hold on strong enough and that our love can withstand all tests...

My Baby!

Yeah!! Finally found a website that can create my and my hubby's baby! haha...So damn cute! Makes me wanna have a baby right now! haha...Here's a photo of the baby boy. Wanna check out the video? Check out my facebook or friendster profile!

Stupid blog template...

I just realised that my blog doesn't have comment link meaning that you guys reading this blog can't post any comment.

Isn't that just plain stupid?

I have to do my blog template again...when I'm so satisfied with this one..

I hate all the html thingy...can never figure them out.

That means...I'll have to go search for a new template again! ARGH!!!

Money

The root of all evil...

There are always people telling me that money doesn't matter, that one can't but happiness with money.

I tell them that they are all bullshiting.

Every one needs MONEY.

Rich people may not be happy although they are rich but they will NEVER be happy without money. Will you be happy if you had to worry when is the next time you get to eat?

You say you want a simple life, on a farm, raising livestock and farming? Where are you gonna get a farm without money? If you think life on a farm is all fun and laughter, I think you seriously need a reality check. Whats gonna happen when there is an epidemic and it wipes out all your livestock? When insects chew up all your harvest?

Look at all the people living "simple lifes". The rural areas of asian countries. The only people that stay are the elderly and the ones who can't find a job in town. Do they enjoy happiness? Maybe...at the expense of their children PROSTITUTING themselves at a young age or maybe being used as child labour and getting paid a pittance. Do these people not worry about money?

Did you know that the death rate for babies are the highest in places like that? Why? Because they have no MONEY!

So stop bullshiting me!

Missing my hubbs...

Yes, I am at work.

Yes, I am slacking again.

YES, I AM procrastinating again!

*LOL*

I love to blog while I'm at work, especially when I'm talking to my CEO.

Imagine my CEO standing right in front of me and my computer, askin me stuff and here I am, typing away at my computer like a professional. wahaha~!

But wait - before you even attempt to do this, please master the skill of typing ALT+TAB without looking. If anything happens, eg. he walks to look at your screen, you can change the screen quick enough without being too obvious.

*TADA* Now you know my trick!

Now is 4.52pm. I'm only finish work at 5.45pm.

I'm missing my hubby like crazy. heehee...

We do the same old thing every time.

Meet for dinner, walk around Toa Payoh Central/AMK/Bishan for a while and then head to my place where we'll just sit down, cuddle up and watch TV.

Its a routine already. Yeah, yeah, I know it might sound boring to you but thats what I call lurve okay?! Just to be beside each other, we need nothing more. heehee...

Okay, it 4.55pm already. :p

Finally managed to get my blog done!!

Woah, finally!

You get to see my finished or at least half done blog. It took me two working days to get it done. Had to spend time sourcing for a good and simple template and stuff...*sighs*

Now that I've got my blog done up, I'll have one less thing to help me waste time at the office. lol..

Hey, don't think I don't have work to do okay...I'm just procrastinating..lol

Failed....Doomed to die a FATARSE!

Okay...I failed. I did not manage to walk up early to go for runs.

Sighs...How can I bear to leave the warmth of my bed early in the morning to torture myself?

Okay. This time I shall try to do it in the evenings instead. Heehee...

Since I can't bear waking up in the mornings then its running in the evenings!

Smart eh? Bleah..I will try..

I must, I must, I must lose that flab!

My Exercise Regime

I've had enough of being fat! I must lose those excess weight!

I've came up with an exercise regime that I must follow!

Wake up at 6am every Tuesday and Thursday for early morning 45mins jog.

Every Monday, Wednesday and Friday are for evening swims after work.

That I must do!

Its get thin or die trying!

I wanna be skinny at least once in my bleddy life!! ARGH!!!!

Why can't I lose weight?!

I have no idea why...

I can never lose weight. I wanna be skinny for once and wear nice, beautiful clothes!

Its not like I gorge myself silly or what..

My meals are usually very simple. I make the effort to take breakfast because they say that it kick starts one's metabolism for the day. I usually take something light like a "pao" or a sardine puff. I try to skip lunch and i munch on biscuits in the late afternoon and for dinner, I'll usually go for soupy dishes so that I get full by drinking soup. Is that alot?!

Why issit that some people will not put on weight no matter how f**king much they consume and yet people like me can gain all the weight even if we live on just plain water? Its so unfair!

I don't deprive myself of sinful food because I know that the more I try to deprive myself of it, the higher the possibility of be gorging later on. I try to keep away from fried and oily food but why the hell am I putting on weight instead of losing it??

Life is so freaking unfair!

I'm thinking of going for lapband surgery. A procedure that puts a band around my stomach so that the food will be digested slower and I can fill fuller for longer.

I wanna get to my ideal weight of 50kg and I don't freaking care if I die trying.

How fast time has passed...

I have been searching Facebook and Friendster for the past week or so trying to seek out friends whom I have lost contact with. Friends whom I share great memories with.

Be it happy or sad memories, they will always remain a part of me.

No matter friends or foes, I wanna add them to my friend list.

Over the years, I have learnt how to forgive and forget. All the falls that I suffered, I have learnt to take them as lessons that taught me how to stand tall and walk straight ahead.

Yup, I'm old. lol..

Looking back, I cherish those memories. The tears that I've cried, my loud infectious laughter.

Its these bits and pieces that form my life. Yes, it may be different if I walked another path, the path that scholars go but hey, that wouldn't be Ivy.

Ivy has evolved over the years. You may know me back then but do you know me now?

Hey, I am different! Get to know me all over again and you may be surprised. :)

I promise I will never get so wasted ever again...

Tuesday night is a nightmare...

I got so damn pissed drunk that I can't even remember what the hell happened.

My memory stopped at 9pm but I only got home at about 11pm and I fell asleep at 1am.

Damn it...

I got a beautiful pressie in the form of a huge bite from my previous manager on my arm. It hurts, until today!

I can't believe I got that wasted...should have stopped the moment we finish the first bottle.

Duh...a little too late to say only now...

Spent Wednesday puking my guts out.

All the alcohol in me has gotta find a way out.

Hated the taste of puke in my mouth. Took me the entire day to fully recover from the freaking hangover.

I will never do it again...

I must remember...the effect of hard liquor only kicks in later.

The problem with me is I start off very fast, drinking like a thirsty camel only to regret it when the effect of the alcohol kicks in later.

I must...change that habit..

Not flying after all!

Thank goodness, I don't need to fly!!

All alone to Philippines...

Not that I fear flying, I fear failing at my job.

I could lose my rice bowl ya know...