New company, new environment and new people

I finally changed my job! The current one pays alot better then the last one. The only down side is that I'll be working all alone with no one to speak to. My only mean of connection to the world is through emails.

One thing that I like about working alone is that there is no one to bother me. I can do things at my own speed and my manager won't even bother me. He's a pretty nice guy who will do everything himself and in a way, it leaves me with pretty much nothing to do.

I do hate having to get up so early in the morning though...Here, work starts at 8.45am which is like 45mins earlier than my previous job which means I have to get up really early. Actually...I've been late at least 15 mins everyday for the past one week or so. haha...

My manager told me, "come here, learn things, get the experience and then you can scoot to higher positions elsewhere!"

Great advice huh? lol...

My Lovely Lola

Okay, its been some time since I bothered to update my blog. Been pretty busy taking care of Lola. She's all grown up now! Here's some beautiful pictures of her...

Another boring day is passing...

I gave up on my food blog...okay, I'll admit that I am too lazy to even blog the food that I consume in a day. But I try to make sure that I don't exceed 1200kcals a day. heehee...

By the way, I got a new puppy!! Okay, its not offically mine yet but I do treat her as my own baby. Knowing my sister, I'm waiting for the day that my sister gives up on her and lets me take over. kwakwa...

Her name is Lola, for now, and she's only about a week old. Did you receive the mass sms that says that there's 8 puppies up for adoption? She from that litter of pups! She's a local cross breed and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that she doesn't grow to be too big...She black in colour with a patch of white that runs just below her neck. She is still very tiny now and needs to be fed every 2-3hours. Her eyes are still closed and I'm wondering when are they gonna take their first peek at this colourful world. I'm actually secretly hoping that I'll be the first person that she sets her eyes upon and she'll take me as mom. heehee...

A diet blog

I've read somewhere that noting down what one eats can actually help one cut down on the amount of food one eats so I'm gonna start doing it on my blog.

What I had today:-

Breakfast - A big glass of water to help kick start my system. Prawn noodles with a cup of tea & another glass of water.

Lunch - 4 miserable pieces of chwee kuay with no water at all!

Dinner - One sardine puff and a pack of so called "fresh" soya milk.

Try as I might

I know that I'll never be able to let things go completely.

*Sighs*

I guess I'll just have to let things be. Pain is nothing when its all you've ever felt.

I know that there isn't a point in me being sad but I know this is a stage that I must go through. What doesn't kill me will only make me stronger.

I must thank my dear friends who has been standing beside me, help me though this. I know it upsets you guys to see me unhappy but please understanding that I'm grieving.
Grieving for a love that never was.

I will get over it. Though I might never forget, I know that I can forgive. I believe what goes around comes around and I know that he will get his just desserts. Till then, I will have the last laugh.

Sisha night

I went ahead with the sisha night even though I was sick. I missed the gathering so many times thats I had to go!

It was supposed to be a fun filled night but it felt weird. Some of them kept themselves engaged in their own private conversations. I tried to pull them out of it but they seem intent to keep it that way.

I was burning away and it came to a point where I was having problems keeping my focus.

We headed to Zouk after the sisha and something happened which showed me the ugly side of singaporeans. I'm not gonna say more. Lets just say that it ruined my night.

This I Promise You

One of my all time favourite song. It still manages to melt me everytime I listen to it. A promise like a fairytale that every girl dreams of. In reality, I don't believe in promises because when a promise is broken, it hurts twice as bad...

When the visions around you bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength, I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when its gone
The one you should call was standing here all along

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever in lifetimes before
And I promise you never will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow forever has now began

Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall when I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

What am I doing in this world?

I'm making my way home. Exhausted. Tired out by work, life. Tired out by everything thats happening around me.

I start questioning. Is there really a point in living? What am I doing in this world?

I'm so exhausted, worn out by what life has to offer.

I wake up everyday only to put on a brave front, a mask to face this artificial world when I'm actually dying inside. No one knows whats going on behind the smiling mask, the laughter.

If i could just fall into a deep sleep and never have to wake up again. Wouldn't it be such a blissful sleep?

Tiring day..

Had a pretty tiring day at work. So many things that I had to follow up with. Its at times like these that I really wonder if its worth it. I feel so underpaid!

Anyway, had a company dinner held at Kuishin-bo in celebration of my lady boss's birthday. Japanese buffet...when I'm on a diet! I'm glad to say though that I did not gorge myself silly. I managed to practice a bit of self-discipline and only had a bit of everything that looked good!

Surprisingly, my boss didn't mention anything about alcohol today! Its a first! Everytime there's a company dinner, he'd be very eager to bring out the alcohol. Well, I was later told that he's on a diet...

Went to chill out with a couple of facebook friends after dinner. Was made to think that Mr. Bean's served alcohol which they don't and moved on to The Crew Room which is just opposite.

The place felt kinda like Velvet on a Thursday without the dancefloor. Had a bottle of beer when people started leaving and we decided to go to Mr. Bean's.

With only 3 of us left(all facebook friends) we got down to discussing the event I'm holding on friday. I'm actually worried that the turnout will not be good...anyway, we've also decided to be healthy and start a monthly sports event!

My half day leave on friday will see me in Planet Fitness before the event.

One of us is doing a diploma in yoga and we decided to let her practise by teaching us! The plan is to meet up every wednesday at about 7.30pm to do yoga!

Free yoga lessons! Not bad a deal huh? She gets to practise teaching while we get free lessons.

We've also decided to do the sport event next saturday. Activities include wakeboarding, cycling, blading, kayaking and board jumping.

We're out to prove that drinkers can be healthy too!

Oh dear, I can't wait for yoga! Its something that I've always wanted to do! lol..

Sighs...I'm missing Sarah badly..

A blue monday

I'm thinking its because of the wine that I drank last night that I'm having mondya blues.

Knowing that I have to cut down on food and drinking is not very exciting.

Well, can't blame anyone but myself for indulging myself for the past few months. *sighs*

Really not in the mood for work. How I wish I can go for a run or a cycle...

Free Orgasm?!

Anyone needs one of these? haha..

Are men who blog gay?

Yesterday, D came up to me and said, "ya know, I just realised that only gay men blogs."

That statment surprised me and I had to find out why.

"Well, a blog is an online diary and men don't keep diaries!"

haha...Why didn't I ever think of that...

I went home and did a random check on my friends who blog and came upon a surprising discovery..

Most of my guy friends who blog are gay with the exception of a few straight men who are commonly mistaken as gays!

Makes me wonder...why do straight men not blog? I'm pretty sure that like us, they too need to have an outlet to express themselves. Its no wonder they say that men have a shorter lifespan. I would too if I had to keep everything bottled up.

A normal asian man for example. Goes to work, interacts with colleagues but doesn't reveal too much about his problems, in case he is seen as weak or even unmanly. After work, hangs out with his mates or his girlfriend but still, the male ego doesn't allow him to pour out his problems to his mates or girlfriend. Girlfriend is then left wondering why doesn't he tell her anything. Guy goes him to family and he still keeps things to himself so as not to worry the family and finally he goes to bed with a full head of thoughts, worries and troubles.

Damn...if I were to live a live like that, I'd probably be dead by now!

Isn't it tiring for men to have to keep things to themselves all the freaking time?

I see blogging as a good way for people to say the things they want, to rant about work, poor service or just stuff that mean things to them(like myself).

I would be happy if my man blogs. I see it as a window to his thoughts and it gives me the chanceto take a peek at whats going on in his mind. It'll definitely help after a nasty fight. Ya know, during the cold war and stuff....

So D, I'm not gonna name you but don't be ashamed of the fact that you blog. The rest are just not man enough to do it. haha..

Finally the sun is showing its face!

I woke up this morning to rate the sun shine into my eyes.

Hooray! I can keep my promise and bring my best friend's kid out for a swim and fulfill my wanting a workout! Okay...I might not be able to have a proper workout...having to watch over him buy hey, kids are really a handful sometimes..

Okay...its not really bright and sunny...got to be fast and get to the pool quick.

Sharks...if only I can get my best friend to wake up early.

What kind of men appeals to me?

Someone posted this question to me and got me thinking...

I'm a bad dresser(t-shirt and jeans. Enough said) and I think I'll like a man who dresses well and can give me advice.

I'm a drinker so he has to be one. Where's the fun in drinking alone?

He'll have to be able to appreciate the simpler things in life.

Someone fun to be with. Or humorous as they put it.

Has got to be a animal lover.

It'll be good if he loves to dance and even better if he can boogie with me till the break of dawn.

Someone intelligent. Hey, I might not be good looking but I've had my fair share of himbos.

Stuff I'd like to do with Mr Right

Sometimes its the simplest things in life that brings the most joy.

1. Cook - Yes, you read correctly. I find it sweet to be cooking a meal together. I got to admit I'm a klutz when it comes to cooking and I'll probably end up doing the washing up.

2. Watch tv - I just like to be able to lie in his arms and watch tv.

3. Talk - In this day and age of high technology many of us seem to have forgotten the need to communicate. I'll never get enough of hearing him talk. Even if he's just ranting about his day at work.

4. Laugh - Laughter is the best medicine. Enough said.

5. Travel - Hopefully he'll share my dream of backpacking all over the world.

Can't think of any more. :)

Man, I feel like a woman!

Okay, I don't get it. Why is it that the boys won't let me join them when they go on a boys' night out? It not like I'm their girlfriend or something.

Given a choice, I'd choose hanging out with the boys than the girls. I hate it when girls start discussing which branded bag looks good, where they bought their shoes and stuff like that. I like to talk to guys about soccer, sports, politics and even women.

I like being able to laugh heartily, to enjoy my beer and to tell dirty jokes.

Okay, back to the point. Why can't these men treat me like a man? I won't expect you to pay for me, I don't mind you snorting when you laugh, I don't give a damn if you hit on a girl while we're out. Can't you guys just forget that I'm a lady?

Enough said. Bring on the booze like a man!

Call me crazy...

Yes, I am crazy...I'm missing my patients. The patients I nursed back to health back then when I was doing my attachment in the hospitals.

I miss working in IMH (Institute of Mental Health) though I wouldn't want to be working there for long. The work there is too stagnant and I won't get to use my nursing skills.

I miss working at TTSH (Tan Tock Seng Hospital). I get to interact with patients, patients' relatives, doctors, radiographers...etc. Thinking back, I learnt a great load of stuff during my short stint at TTSH. I really miss the patients there expecially the long staying patients.

I remember a young patient in his mid 20s who has been staying there for close to 2 yrs. He feel from a height and ended up bed ridden. I cleaned him, fed him, clothed him and even changed him. Though he couldn't speak or move, it felt like he knew who am I. He'll look at me when I move from one side of his bed to another. I used to play silly games of my own with him, running from one side of his bed to another, calling out his name, making him turn his head to my direction. Sometimes I'll just tickle him to make him laugh.

There is also one patient that I remember clearly. An old man who lives near my place. I nursed him back to health from a pretty serious back injure that left him immoble for close to 3 months. The weird thing was that I was switched from one ward to anothe during the 3 months and he seem to be following me! haha...He too, switch from one ward to another.

Working in the ward can be really frustrating sometimes when things happen and there are many people who do not practise what they preach. I get really upset when I see things like that happen. One thing that I hate is the way they stick to the rules. There are many things that can be done in another way that saves time and money but these people are so stiff!

Argh...too many things to say about work in the hospital. Got to get some work done first. Ciaos~

My deteriorating standard of "england"

I just realised how bad my command of english is.

I can't believe it! Imagine going from A1 to C6...

Must be because I hang around with too many chinese speaking people. To be truthful, my entire office speaks pretty bad english. Its painful when I read some of their emails.

Maybe I should hang out with more "proper english" speaking crowd.

Some of the things I think I should change:-

1. Go for drinks at Balaclava instead of the cheena KTV pub just next to my office.
2. Start hanging out with more caucasians.
3. Speak more English.
4. Read, read and read some more!
5. Go back to listening to Bossa Nova instead of cheena Cantopop
6. Get a caucasian boyfriend.

The last one is gonna be a tough one though...lol..

Its been quite some time since I hung out with people who spoke with an accent. My cheena friends actually think that people who speak/spoke (pardon the bad english) with accents are just some wannabes who try to hard. But I do enjoy hanging out with people like them. Okay...I'll admit it, I don't like guys with a moustache, body hair or what-so-ever, I like men with an accent. I have no idea why but I just find it oh-so-sexy. hahahas... (changing topic...lol)

One thing though...I don't like caucasians, I like asian men. Asian men with an accent. I always go googoo gaga over ABCs (American Born Chinese) or KBCs (Korean Born Chinese). The KBCs are so damn cute and they're especially delicious when they speak in Korean.

Oh dear, just realised that I might be revealing too much about myself here. Oh well...if you read my blog, I'll pray hard that we'll never get to meet or it might get embarrassing cause I suspect I might just reveal more saucy details on this little blog of mine. :p

Open Relationships

Had a chat with a friend earlier on the topic of an open relationship.

Whats your thoughts on an open relationship?

My take on an open relationship is that its a transition before one is sure that you're going into a serious exclusive relationship with someone. Its the time when you see different people while keeping your options open.

An open relationship doesn't give one the right to sleep around though...I'm all for monogamy...

Some people take an open relationship as one whereby you're with someone but you still sleep around. I think its these people who give the term "open relationship" a bad name.

To me, an open relationship is when I feel something for someone but am still unsure of where or what we're heading for. By giving each other the chance to see other people, you're actually giving yourself a chance to evaluate the relationship...

I promise...

I promise I'll not have a heavy lunch in future!

My eyelids seem to have a life of their own...threatening to block out my vision and not let me do any work.

I must avoid having heavy lunches! Must be aware of the growing waistline. ARGH! Seriously in need of a good workout!

Gym? Tomorrow? Hmm...before work or after work?

Should bring Kelpy out for a run..He's putting on the weight as well. I believe when they say the dog resembles its owner. Because he's starting to get FAT! haha...

I can't believe I'm blogging in office, something that I have never attempted before. I'm starting to slack a little too much. haha...