Its Children's Day today. Come this time next year and I will be celebrating it with my little girl. Sighs....sometimes, it still scares me to know that I'm gonna be a mother soon.

Anyway, I was reading a blog that I found of a girl from Flowerpod. Its damn funny lah...not funny as in what she posted on the blog but the way she seeks attention. She goes around the forum telling people that she used to be bullied and teased for being fat and that she is losing weight already...all the blah blah blah...

I went through her blog, looked at her photos and guess what? She is still fat. You can see from her posts dating back to 2007 that she has been talking about losing weight and she has never done it. Whats funnier is that she has not posted any photos of herself for the past 2 months.

And she said she lost weight? I don't see a change in her from the photos dating back to 2007 to the photos posted 2 months ago. HAHA....Attention seeker!

Only been a few days...and we sold off my Nokia N97! Lol...Hubby bought the phone for $600 and we managed to sell it off for $680. And soooo........I got a new phone!

The previous owner of this phone used it for only 2 months and he's selling it coz he's not used to it. I'm not very used to it either but I'm tryint to learn....
I applied for Blackberry Internet Service with Singtel and it is gonna cost me a whopping $30 extra per month! Expensive hor? The price to pay to stay connected. I'm not going to renew my plan when it expires. I'll switch to a cheaper plan instead. HAha....

I absolutely hate my uncle. He's my grandma's first son. The eldest. If I'm not wrong.

He has been cheating my grandma of her money. Yes, damn shit. He jolly well knows that she is already senile and yet he keeps asking her for money. When my mom called him to confront him, he dare say that he is very broke and in need of money and that he owes loansharks money. Fuck him. He is the one who borrowed the money. Why are we the one to bear the brunt for him?

For so many years. he has never given my grandma a single cent and now, he wants her to sell her HDB flat and give him part of the money from the sales. Where is my grandma and my mentally disabled aunt going to stay? God must have been sleeping to let a man like that live for so damn long. When he was rich, he did not even think of my grandma. Now that he is broke, he keeps asking my grandma to sell the flat and give him the money.

KNNBCCB!

Now that my granda is old and senile, I really don't know what is going to happen. When she goes, my mentallly disabled aunt will be the only legal owner of the flat. I bet my last dollar that they will bring her to sell the flat off and my aunt being mentally disabled, will not know better.

My uncle is already suggesting putting my granda in a old folks home and my aunt in the Institute of Mental Health. So convenient right? Just throw them all away. Damn....I hate having relatives like that!

Hubby got me a new phone. The Nokia N97.

Ok lah...He sold my Nokia 5800 and topped up $200 for this phone. I topped up $100. Not exactly a gift. Actually, he's dying to lay hands on this phone so its actually his idea that he buy this phone. He wanted to buy and then resell it for a profit but when he got it, the selling value is not there anymore, meaning that if he were to sell if, he'd at most break even. So I thought why not I take this phone and this phone ended up with me lor.....

The features are pretty much similar to my Nokia 5800. Just that this touch screen is more sensitive to my touch, has a QWERTY keyboard and has higher megapixel at 5mp compared to the Nokia 5800's 3.2mp. Hmm....not too bad a phone I guess. I don't really like that the battery life is very short so I got to carry it's charger all over the place and that the charger is not the standard Nokia charger but its the USB type of charger so I can't just borrow it. If only they standardise all the chargers....

The long weekend is over. I'm back at work. Did I ever mention how much I hate my work? The only motivation is my salary. Currently I'm getting 1.8k which is quite a fair bit for someone who has only a NITEC cert like I am. I'm planning to do a private diploma after I have my baby and I will leave this company. It sucks. LOL.

I didn't really do much during the weekend. Actually, I can't really remember what I did....alamak...I'm starting to lose my memory. Keke...

Wait...let me try to recall...

Friday...went back to my mom's place, had dinner and stayed for the night. Its my usual friday routine.

Saturday...Ooooo...Now I remember...Had steamboat at hubby's place with his family. His parents, sisters and their partners. Ok lah. The usual steamboat fare lor. After that...watched TV the whole night.

Sunday...slept in the whole day and later in the evening, accompanied hubby to his usual kopitiam and kept him company while he drank with his friends. Like some old uncle...drink at kopitiam. Obviously, I can't drink so I was playing with his Iphone the whole time. My hubby like to drink lah. He says its his only hobby and those guys at the kopitiam are people who watched him grow up. LOL.

Monday..Hubby's off day coincided with mine so we both slept in! Stupid hubby switched off the aircon at 8plus and I woke up at 9 plus all sweaty. Darn irritating lor....I wake up soon after the aircon is switched off. Can you imagine how hot I felt? I wanted to move back home for good. Back at my place, I can on the aircon 24/7 and no one will nag at me. At his place, I have to bear with the heat in the afternoon or his mom will nag about the electricity bills. Sighs. I miss home lah!

I am dying to move back home but hubby keeps saying that he won't be able to sleep without me.....I don't believe him, confirm he will sleep when he is tired de...but I just can't bear to leave my hubby alone. HAha..I wonder what will happen to him when I go home for my confinement...

It feels like I haven't slept all night...My back aches, tummy aches, hip aches. Everything aches! I remember tossing and turning throughout the night. I need sleep. I reckon that the two weeks of maternity leave I took before my EDD will be spent sleeping....

Went for my 31st week check up yesterday. The check up is supposed to be done only on the 32nd week but I will be in my 32nd week only on Monday which is a public holiday. Apparently, doctor prefers to do the check up earlier then later.

Anyway, baby is 1.8kg. I think its a little small but he says its a good weight. The last time I went, baby was 1.2kg so she put on about 600grams. Hmm...I'm guessing that she will be somewhere near 3kg when she is born. 

Her face is half covered by the placenta - I think my placenta looks huge! Its almost the same size as the baby - and we couldn't really see anything clearly. I asked to do a 4D scan but was advised by my doctor not to. He says that I do not have enough fluid in front of baby's face and the money will be wasted.....

I forgot to ask doc for baby's scan photo again!!! Its been 8 months and I only have 3 of baby's scans. I'm so forgetful! Hubby says its ok coz we can't really see anything in the scan anyway but still....I feel like an idiot...

We went to HDB Hub after the check up. Had to check with the loan officer how we can get the HLE letter. So troublesome...Hubby is self employed but he does not own the stall that he is using now so he can't apply for income tax so he can't use income tax to declare his income. He had to do a statutory declaration to declare his income.

Anyway, got it done and I'll be printing out everything so that we can send out the HLE application letter. I wonder how much can we loan.....

31 weeks and I'm going for my check up today. Somehow, I expect my gynae to say that my EDD will be earlier coz I can feel that she is so big already! She is kicking at my ribs all the time, especially when I am seated at my office desk working away. It gets so uncomfortable that I have to lay back at time and try rubbing my tummy to make her not kick at my ribs.

Its back to the days of having to wake up in the middle of the night to pee. Sighs....I hate that feeling. My sleep is also getting disturbed as I feel her doing her yoga moves in the night.

I am pretty sure that my baby will turn out to be a Kung-Fu expert. I think she is using my ribs for weight resistence training, that explains the kicking of the ribs...

6 more weeks of work to go before I can take maternity leave. It certainly feels like a lifetime! My quality of sleep is so bad now that I feel so tired every morning. I wish I can just go back to sleep and not have to work.

Crap lah.....The lady who was employed to take over my position cannot do her work and is definitely gonna make a mess of things when I am gone. Teehee....I hope that they will ask me to take over once I am back so that I can request for a pay raise. Maybe 20%? Then I will be getting $2k+. Quite a big amount for a ITE grad. LOL. Some diploma grads are not getting when I'm getting even after a few years in the workforce...

Enough of crapping. Update again after the check up!

Only 31 weeks and my back is breaking already.

I am starting to get tired easily. I can feel the little one poking at my ribs all the time and its very very uncomfortable.

I keep dozing off at work! How I wish I am on maternity leave already so that I can sleep all day...

6 more weeks to my maternity leave and it seems like a lifetime!

I finally found the button to upload images....but I still can't find the one to upload videos. *sObs*

Okay....I still can't post photos. I wonder what happened to the button which we normally use to upload photos. Its gone, for like 2 weeks.

Anyway, I went to Orchard Ion for the first time on Saturday! Had a great time walking around town with my beloved sister. Hubby was being a pig at home. He hates going to town...heehee...

I went to Cotton On and bought a cardigan and a top. Cost me 40 bucks. I was shocked that I can fit in the clothes at Cotton On! I'm so big sized and yet I can fit into their clothes! Happy! Lalala~~

Went Bugis with hubby and my two little godsons. Its really tiring! One is four years old and the other is 1 and a half. Its tiring to have to look out for them when they walk. I wonder why issit that they don't look up when they walk and just keep banging into people.

I'm kinda scared...I'm not a patient person and trust me, I can be very very strict and fierce with kids. I'm worried that I might kill my own kid. Heehee...I almost drowned my godson the last time I went swimming with him. Now, my hubby should be afraid, be very afraid...

I have to admit that I am not a good blogger. My thoughts fly all over the place and I am never able to put them in order.

One moment, I am thinking of food and the moment I am thinking of something else.

Reading my blog might prove to be pretty tiresome. I used to write very good compositions in school. I wonder what happened to that eloquent me?

I guess I left my standard of english hanging somewhere out there.

Oh dear, I'm falling asleep in the office....zzzzzZZzzZzzz...I dozed off while typing this. heehee....

I can't post photos!! This has gone for more than 1 week! I wonder what is wrong with blogspot. The buttons for posting of photos are all gone! ARGH!!

So many things I want to do and yet so little time and limited money.

I want a new tattoo that covers my entire back but I haven't found anything that I like. Maybe I should psycho my hubby to get one as well. Teehee...I think his mom will strangle me.

I want to lose weight. Got to wait two months for the little one to pop before I can start.

I want to do a diploma course in private secretary. It seems that they pay secretaries very well. I heard that a secretary with 5 year working experience or more can demand for at least $4k.hmm...

I want to go drinking. Its been too long...I need to feel the alcohol coursing through my bloodstream again.

I want to go running, jogging. I want to go for hashes! I need sports!

I want so many things!!!

Life is never easy. I've always asked my mother why give birth to me and my sisters when she don't love us.

My parents' marriage broke up when I was 11 years old. My dad had an affair. The separated when I was 11 years old but my dad had friends who "guarded" the door. My dad would appear when my mom brings a man home. My dad once confronted the guy at the corridor and they almost got into a fight. Luckily, there were police at the carpack behind my block investigating something and so I alerted them. It felt like I called the cops on my dad.....They finalised their divorce when I was 14 years old.

Just before they finalised their divorce, I found out that my mom was seeing a married man. I was disgusted. Her own marriage was broken up by a third party and yet she is seeing a married man. There was once my sisters and I went home late. Without keys, we knocked on the door. Guess what we saw? Our mother wrapped in a towel, obviously naked previously, coming to open the door for us. The man was in her room. We went home, showered and watch tv in the living room but we could still hear moaning from my mom's room. I was 14 and my sisters were 12 at that point of time.

She broke off with the man after a year. When I was 15, I received a call from my younger sister one day saying that my mom brought a man home. I confronted my mother and she said she pitied the guy coz he had nowhere to stay. I scolded her. I called her a slut. "Pua lok kuay" is what we say in hokkien. Yes, I called my mother that. So he had nowhere to stay, what business of yours is that? Anyway, he can sleep in the living room. Why share your bed? So that you can get laid? Why not just admit that you are itching down there?

I scolded her so bad that she cried. She promised me that there is nothing going on between him and her and that nothing will ever happen. 3 days later, I received a call from my sister to tell me that she saw them kissing. WTF. I give up. My mom is a slut. Period.

Yucks. Thats all I can say. I hate my mom. I seriously hate her. One of my younger sister had sex when she was 14 and went to the police coz she was afraid she'd get pregnant. I think she simply followed my mother's footsteps.

My other sister got sick of my mother and turned lesbian, I think. LoL.

I still get angry when I think of all the times that my mom lied to me. Oh, and her boyfriend now, is useless. Literally useless. Lives off my mom. Doesn't contribute a single cent. I think the only reason my mom lets him stay is because he gives her a good fuck.

Nothing much going on in my life right now.

Oh yar, my primary school classmate actually posted up one of our class photos and it became a reunion of some sorts. I want to upload the photo up here but I can't seem to find the button for uploading of photos.

I wonder if there is something wrong with blogger again. Its been like that for the past 3 days! Shall update again when blogger is okay.

I got milk!!

Wooohoo!!

The colostrum appear last night! I was applying my stretch mark cream when my hands got itchy and I squeezed a bit to see if the milk will come and there it was! Colostrum, the very first drop of milk! WEETS!

I am now officially a milk cow. WOAH!

I absolutely dread coming to work. Especially when I have to face stupid people who do not know how to take initiatives. Blah.

The lady who is replacing me is like that. In my opinion, she is useless, slow, stupid to the extent of being beyond hope.

Alamak, I shouldn't be so mean. Okay...I will ask her to join Sammie and myself for lunch. But...we won't get to gossip...

The following is what my friend posted as a note on his Facebook:-

Sat, Aug 29, 2009

I honestly don't like Singaporean men very much. They bore me. The majority are so homophobic that they wouldn't even appreciate Sacha Baron Cohen's alter ego, Bruno! Or maybe, it could simply be insecurity arising from the fact that they have on multiple occasions unwittingly exposed themselves to Bruno. Don't know what I'm talking about?

Yet, I do need to credit Singaporean men with a couple of things.

1) Singaporean men are rock steady. Because of the risk-adverse nature of the well-educated, average Singaporean male, he is effectively the financial pillar for any woman and tai-tai's-to-be. Never mind the financial turmoil, he's probably got it all planned and sorted somewhat.

2) Singaporean men are steadfast, loyal and faithful to a cause. Foreign female friends rant and rave about how the Singaporean Joe is ever eager to please. Their Asian roots help - no further for a doting father and family man.

3) Singaporean men are so united. In a relaxed setting, two things effectively bind men here - and that's army talk and soccer talk. I've witnessed so many Singaporean Joes chummying up within minutes of idle banter on these two default topics.

4) Singaporean men respect their elders and tradition. While increasingly local women stray on this, the men remain stalwart.

Moving on, time to get bitchy with the bitches - the worst of Singaporean women. I tend not to develop close relationships with many Singaporean women because their faults repulse me so much.

When you do catch me with female company during the weekends, you'd discover that they aren't local, or they have spent many years abroad, or also hate other Singaporean women with a passion. What's there to dislike? Too much!

1) Sarong Party Girls (SPGS). I was at Attica some weeks back, just tagging along with some friends. I was rolling my eyes over and over again. Local girl after local girl were hurling themselves at Ang Moh men, disregarding the Caucasians' looks and profession. If you think that these SPGs are those who are sexed up, dressed in tight or revealing clothing and beach-tanned, that isn't sot. The SPG mentality is so widespread there is even a SPG in every Plain Jane.

2) The Non-SPGs are unadventurous and boring. They are the "I don't know, anything goes!" type. What's their idea of spending the weekend? Shopping, lying in bed, watching Korean or Japanese soap operas. Ask them out to go for in-line skating, cycling or shooting it out at paintball and they'd talk you out of it.

3) Spineless, shapeless wrecks. She NEVER lives for herself but always about what her boyfriend wants, what her mother wants, father wants, friends want. The biggest irony? Her friends are equally lost! Unlike the robust women from the West, these Vanda Miss Joaquims have no dreams, goals or passions. Oh sorry, I forgot - they do however continually seek out men they can leach inspiration from and direction from. The one time you never want to be close to a Singaporean woman is when she is out of job and bumming. They are just SO DRAINING! At least in Japan, women are domestic lords.

4) Complacent As Hell. The Singaporean woman naturally doesn't give a damn about her appearance, what with all that "if he loves me, he'll accept me for who I am" jazz. To them, getting attached is an excuse to get fat, as is getting hitched, having a baby, or becoming a mom. I know this too well. I live with one, the Monster Mom. Don't blame your husband or boyfriend for the "overtime work" or inordinate amounts of "business travel".

5) They are prissy. Hello? The poor guy's only asking to go out with you. It's not like he's proposing. And where have you been? Reproduction ain't the sole function of sex.

6) Twisted, warped minds. Girls reading this may attest to hating your moms. I wouldn't speak so soon. It's a vicious cycle.

7) Choping seats with tissue paper. Absurd and completely unacceptable.


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1. Oh come on, this is so shitty. Who says that all Singaporean women has got a SPG in them? I, for one, dislike caucasian men. I am no lover of some stupid Bread Pitt or Fernando Torres. Come one lah. Whats so attractive about them?

2. Huh? What about the lazy Singaporean men? All that they do is sit around to talk about their cars. You think they do sports? More like they meet for that pint of beer!

3. So, what are the dreams of Singaporean men? To earn enough to provide for their mothers?

4. Crap! We are always trying to make ourselves prettier. Unlike you men who think that you should be accepted for whatevery pig that you resemble. There are so many 30 year old men out there who sport a huge beer belly and they don't do a single thing about it. You always see pretty girls hanging on the arms of fat and ugly men. Singaporean men are the ones who don't give a damn about how they look!

5. Reproduction isn't the sole function of sex so are you gonna go hump everyone you meet like a bunny since its so pleasureable?

6. Yup, the one who wrote the note has definitely got a warped and twisted mind.

7. Don't make it sound like the men don't do it. I definitely don't chop seats with tissue packets but I've definitely seen the men do it and I've ever seen them chop seats with cigarette packets.

Stop criticising the women only!

Slow - The one word that I use to describe the lady replacing me.

She is sooooooo slow! Just like a sloth!

Send her an email at 9.16am and I get a reply at 5.30pm. Mind you, she is new and will be taking over my duties and from what I see, I haven't given her anything much to do.

She is so slow I get frustrated sometimes.

I wonder what will things be like when I'm gone. She will be left to die on her own. Teehee...none of my business though. I'm anticipating my maternity leave.

Oh and she does not listen to our advise. I'll be waiting to see how she dies.......OHOHOHOH!

Short Girls on Scramblers or Other Big Bikes

Short Girls on Tall Bikes.

They are a HAZARD to other road users!

If they are tall enough to have their feet touch the ground, its still considered okay. Its the whole feet on the ground and not tip toeing, mind you!

They are TIP TOEING! For goodness sake! They can lose their balance anytime and who is gonna save them when they topple over? They will get run over by the other cars!

ALAMAK! Girls who are too short should be banned from getting big bikes!

What are they gonna do when they come to a traffic light? Step on the tyres of the cars beside them or throw a stool on the ground so that they can step on it? (must remember to tie a rope onto the stool so that they call reel it in when the light turns green)

Its extreme stupidity!