My Monster

Feels like its been a long time since I last blogged. Heehee...very lazy and don't have a single idea what I'm gonna type. Now, here's a video clip of the monster in me kicking.

3 more months to go...

And I haven't bought a single thing for my baby!

First things first, I think I'll need to get a baby sling, a stroller and a cot. Alamak...I totally forgot about it. Damn...so many things to buy!

I need a check list...what are the things that I need. In case I forget. I'm looking at all the 2nd hand strollers on ebay now. Hopefully I can get something cheap and good....ARGH!!

Tuesday Blues

The long weekend is over!! *Sobs*

I wanna stay at home and rest! I'm so tired today. Feeling super cranky and I can just bite off anyone's head. RAWRRRR!!

Tuesday blues! I am praying for November to come soon so that I can stay home and sleep all I want. heehee...Yes, I am lazy but I've been working for 2 years non stop! NO breaks, no long vacations! Tired of it all. I just wanna stay home and rest...

Depressed

I am depressed. I just realized that I can never travel out of the country. My hubby got no passport, he probably wont get one for the next 10 years and he is too lazy to apply for a temporary one. He definitely won't let me travel without him. I feel locked up. I feel JAILED up.

I'm tired of our relationship. Tired of his always wanting something better, newer, more expensive.

We just bought a new TV. I was told to pay $200. He just bought a pair of new spectacles costing $260, I paid $130. I'm told to pay half for every thing and I don't ask him to pay a single cent for baby at all. Baby's check up. He paid nothing. Baby's package, he paid nothing. He won't need to pay a single cent for my baby's labour. Most of it will be paid by my Medisave and I will pay for the rest out of my own pocket.

We went grocery shopping on Wednesday. He spent close to $50 for rice, toilet rolls, tissue paper and some tidbits. I was telling him that I will pay for it but he insisted on paying. Guess what happened? He was nagging and complaining all the way home! Saying that he spent so much money when he don't even earn that much, that he is disappointed that I never offered to pay half. I was like...KNN lor! You told me not to pay, you are the one who declined my offer and now you're saying that I never offer to even pay half? WTF! Then I told him that if he expects me to pay half, then say! Don't act like gentleman and say don't need only to end up nagging at me! What more, you are the man aren't you? You SAID you're supposed to provide for the family right?

ARGH!!! My blood boils at the thought of it. KNNBCCB!

I am born a pampered life. I had a maid since I was a BABY okay. Now that I move to your place, I sweep your room for you, wash my own clothes and yet you expect me to HANDWASH my clothes?


ARGHHHHH!!!!

Am I Wrong?

Quarrel with hubby again over where baby and I are going to stay after I give birth.

I proposed moving back home, staying at home during the weekdays and going back to his place over the weekends and he is giving me hell.

I don't see what is wrong with me staying at my place where I have MAIDS to take care of my baby. His place? Everyone is working! Well, his dad is jobless now, so am I supposed to ask his dad to take care of the baby?!

He really is ridiculous. He keeps saying that my insisting to move back home is being childish. What is he going to do? Employ a maid to look after our kid?

I've got TWO maids at home! One to help my mother out, the other one to look after my grandma, I'm pretty sure it will be okay if they shared the responsibility to look after my kid?

He is so freaking childish and yet, he is saying that I am childish. I feel like strangling him!

Not A Good Day...

Today is not a good day for me. I'm not feeling well. My tonsils hurt and I'm feeling groggy. Wish I can jump into bed and sleep. I think my tonsils are inflamed. Again.

Definitely not H1N1. I know when my tonsils is giving me problems. Grrrr...
Should have had them removed.

I'm falling asleep in the office. The little one is kicking me like there is no tomorrow. I'm contemplating quitting my job and doing a full time diploma. Should I? Hmm...its only a 8 months course. Maybe I should give it a try.

I Hate Work

Tuesday morning. Got medical leave from my gynae yesterday when I went for baby's monthly check up.

Bleah. I hate work. How I wish I can stay home and rest. Boring as it may be, its better than having to come to work and face idiots who think that I'm not doing my job. Bloody hell. They are the ones who are not doing their work.

Another irritating day with lots of stuff to do and to deal with idiots. How I wish I have all the money in the world so that I can just stay home and be a tai-tai. Sighs. Dream...

I Hate Chinamen

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Orchard Road!!

For the first time in months, I stepped onto Orchard Road with hubby!

First stop was definitely Wisma Atria and Takashimaya. There was sales everywhere, even at Armani Exchange! I'm soooo fat now I'm sure I cannot fit into any clothes and I didn't really bothered looking at clothes.

Me and hubby were trying to look for a sling bag that is to his liking. It was always either too small or two big for him. Can you imagine its already been 1 whole year and he hasn't found a bag that is to his liking? blah...

I saw a bag from CK that I liked but it was kinda expensive and its too big. We shopped from Wisma to Taka to Far East Plaza. From 4.30pm to 8.30pm at night.

I almost cannot believe that I managed to not buy anything except for one cap that cost me 40 bucks for hubby from AX. Its was the last piece and on discount. 50% discount! Oh, I forgot to mention, the service at AX SUCKS big time! The lady behind me in the paying queue was actually moved ahead by the sales assistant who served her. I was so angry! Why is she cutting my queue when I came first, just because someone served her? Damn...

We were so worn out by all the walking that we decided to take a cab. The queue at the taxi stand at Ngee Ann is outrageous! Where are all the taxis when one needs them? I saw some people board the "On Call" cabs when I'm pretty sure that they did not call for a cab. They were in the queue when they saw that there are people boarding cabs opposite the queue and decided to go grab a cab from there.

I wonder if the taxi drivers really confirm the passengers' identities before letting them even board the cab. Anyway, we waited for close to an hour before we finally managed to get a cab. So tired on the way home....but I did get to see the new Orchard Road in the end. haha...

Finally I Can Feel Movements!

Yeah!! I can finally feel baby's movements liao wor! It feels a little like she's jabbing here and there. Teehee..

Sighs...Just the thought of the amount of weight I'd put on is enough to make me sick. How am I going to lose all this weight after she's born??? ARGH!!

Will I have time to go to the gym or workout?

Sighs...new manager, increased workload but no pay increase. I am so going to quit and stay home to shake leg after baby is born. That is...if hubby earns enough money. HAHA!!

20 Weeks Fatal Anomaly Scan

I went for the scan yesterday. Was so excited!

Waited about 20 minutes before I went into the room. I had to go in alone first. The radiologist - I think thats what to call her - scanned the baby and took measurements of her. Only when she is done did she call hubby in.

We saw her together. A little life that is growing in me. The radiologist said that baby is moving around but its weird that I don't feel a thing yet.

The scan was done, we waited for the report and then proceeded to see my doctor. Nothing much actually. He just told me that baby is doing fine and that I will start feeling her movements in the next one or two weeks. Oh, and he drew my blood for HIV tests.

Did I mention that baby's sex is confirmed to be a little girl? Heehee...I prefer girls to boys lah. Can dress her up prettily. haha....

The Men That I Like

There's so many different kinds of men I like that I can't remember them all!

I have something for ABCs - American Born Chinese, Koreans. Heehee...I think I love hearing the accent from an Asian.

1. Donnie Yen - I like his smile. I find his smile super sexy and when he acts in kung-fu movies, check out his eyes. So serious and focused. I think all women like a focused man. Oh, and not to forget his to die for bod. *drools*


2. Wilber Pan - This guy is cute. I like his smile too. Nice white teeth and thick luscious lips. Okay, this sounds weird. How about kissable lips?


3. Jerry Yan - Have you seen this guy smile? IF he smiled at me in person and looked into my eyes, I swear that I will fall to my knees! He's got dimples! Oh dear...just the thought of him smiling at me is making me drool!

I Got Married!

Darn..I must have been out of my freaking mind to get married.

I'm now officially Mrs. Luo.

*sighs*

It was never in my plans to get married this early. Thanks to the unplanned pregnancy. Hey, before you start flaming me, I got to say that I did use protection. In fact, I was on the pill when I got pregnant. I think its heaven's will that I got preggy and thus decided to have the baby and get married.

The wedding was fantastic.

Thanks to all my friends who made it possible. Ya, you know who you are. I love you guys to bits! It was amazing, friends I'd known for a decade helping out with my wedding. The feeling was AMAZING!

Now that the wedding is over, I can't help but miss home. Yes, I've moved into his place but not to worry, I will move back home soon. When my tummy grows bigger and it gets increasing difficult for me to walk. I'm sure my hubby will agree to let me move back home. teehee...

I'll upload my montage when I have the chance. P.S. The internet connection at home sucks!

Tummy Showing?

I think my tummy is showing already...A lady actually offered her seat on the train to me. OMG! I was like...WTF?!

Damn...how am I gonna fit into any wedding gown on my big day?

I hate my manager!

Yes, I hate him. Period.

We nickname him the "Mole". Any guesses as to why we call him that? Okay. Let me explain.

Firstly, he looks moley. lOl...his sort of balding head and his slightly protruding teeth resembles that of a mole. Oh, sorry to mention this - he has got a cleft lip and it showes his teeth even more.

Secondly, he is as deaf as a mole or he pretend to be deaf. Which, is irritating. He can't seem to understand what I am trying to get through his stick skull. Damn brainless. For those of you who don't know, a mole is both deaf and blind.

Thirdly, moles dig tunnels underneath the ground and is seldom seen. My manager is in hiding most of the time and you can never find him when you really need him.

Now, why do I hate him?

1. He shirks from responsibility. Yes, he is trained in the art of Taiqing all the work to all the other people around him, including me. He throws every single thing to me, no matter I am supposed to do it or not. Even stuff that are considered confidential and that I am not supposed to get involved in!

2. He whines. Yes, you heard me right. He whines like a baby. We work on level 6 but he always runs to the pantry at level 4 to whine to the people in the operations department!

3. He procrastinates. Always! Even when we are in the middle of a court case and the lawyer needs his input to fight the case.

4. He pushes all blame to me! For everything big and small, it will be "Ivy this, Ivy that!"

I hate him! Enough said!

Depression

Hormonal changes in me are causing me to go all weird.

I can't seem to be able to control my emotions and will get angry or cry at the smallest stuff. I am losing control over myself.

I think my hubby to be is bearing the brunt of things. I'm becoming more and more outspoken as in voicing out at any injustice or just things that irk me.

Thoughts of the future frighten me so much that I am frustrated. Knowing that what we earn now is not enough for ourselves, not to mention a baby. He tries to comfort me, saying that we can make money slowly. But, can a baby grow up slowly?

I think one may say that I think far too much and worry for things that have not happened but aren't we supposed to think ahead and prepare yourselves for what might happen? Isn't that why people buy insurance or put aside some savings?

He cannot tolerate a two minute talk about our future and tries to avoid the topic. Is this what men are all about? Avoiding the topic and then later claim to be thinking about the matter?

All he makes me feel is that he is avoiding the topic, not thinking about the future and just doing whatever he feels is right. Sighs..

I hate my Father-In-Law!!!

He is the one who taught my hubby to be such a loser!

Such a bad example! I hate him! A man who only knows how to talk and do nothing.

My mother-in-law asked him for money for our wedding, he can say he got no money and yet ask for 5 tables for his friend. What kinda fucker is that?

He aint gonna get no respect from me. You want respect? You gotta earn it. Don't expect to be respected just because you're senior. I tell ya what, Fuck IT!

Stop being a fucker who only knows drinking and gambling. Its time for you to wake up your idea. You wanna be a proud father? Show that you can do it and not be some mother fucker!

I absolutely loathe people like that!

Imagine me living with him? I'm already trying to keep my mouth shut about him. Trying to give him that little respect I have for him as my father-in-law. You reckon I'll keep my mouth shut for long?

Birthday...

A good day today, bright and sunny.

Getting ready now, go find daddy to cut the cake.

Going to bugis later, shopping with my hubby.

He's buying me my birthday pressie. I know it! lols..

Nobody's home today, only me and my boyfriend.

I love him, I love myself and I love the world.

Cheerios!

My Fight Against the Flab Monster!

Day 1.

Curry puff for breakfast.
Vegetarian rice for lunch. Only 1/4 rice, 2 servings of vegetables and 1 egg sunny side up.

Determined to keep dinner very very light. Will have to find a weighing scale and weigh myself.

Have to start stocking my office up with healthy snacks. Fruits...nuts..

Too the stair up to my office on the 6th storey this morning. One step closer to losing weight! Shall start doing the same for lunch and after work. Gambatte!

Fake Eyelashes!

I've always thought that its a hassle to glue on faux eyelashes and that they'd look very fake but hey, I was all wrong!

Last week, I had my first attempt at glueing on fake lashes. I admit that the first time really sucks. I was silly enough not to trim the lashes and I almost glued my eyelids shut. Okay....I'm exaggerating..lols..

After a few failed attempts, I finally realised that I must trim it to the length of my eye before I even try to glue them on. After that, it was all very easy.

I don't like the super long ones that looks super fake. I like the ones that look natural enough for everyday use. I'm still quite a newbie at it though, it takes me 15 minutes to glue them on but I like the way that they "open" my eyes.

I'm now addicted to them and I think I will continue sticking them on! The photos below are some photos with the super long and dolly eyelashes. They look nice in photos but are actually look very fake in real.