Larissa's 4th Month Vaccination

I took half day's leave to bring Larissa for her 4th month's vaccination at Yishun Polyclinic yesterday.

We arrived early and I had the chance to feed her before her vaccination. (there was a nursing room just right beside the vaccination rooms, which is a pretty nice touch). She hasn't passed motion for an entire week and then she decided that she shall do it at the polyclinic. Grrr...

The stupid thing is....the babies' changing table is located OUTSIDE THE TOILET, which means that I had to change her in full view of the public! Mind you, she is doing her big business leh! Ccan you imagine the dirty looks that people who walked pass gave me? I should write in to complain....

Anyway, the wait was pretty short as we arrived early. The amazing thing was...Larissa did not cry! She grunted a bit but she did not cry out loud at all! Oh, I'm so proud of my little baby. I'm not sure if its because she has a high pain tolerance or because that she is simply too fat to feel the needle. lol...

At 4 months old, Larissa is already 8.22kg. Most of my friends' babies are only about 6.5kg at 6 months so it makes Larissa kinda obese! People keep asking what am I feeding her and I swear that I feed her only breastmilk and nothing else, not even water! lol...

Oh dear, I am missing her already. Here's some of my darling's pictures for your viewing pleasure. lol...

Before she had her hair shaved off

After she had her hair shaved off

New Job

Just started my new job yesterday. Quite an easy job I think. Save for the fact that I got only 7 days leave a year and that I work 9 hours a day.

The pros are that its only a few bus stops away from hubby's place and that lunch is provided! Heehee...imagine the money I will save.

Amazingly, the lunch served today had sea cucumber! Wah, like very rich hor? lol.

Anyway, its not easy for me to leave Larissa in the care of others to return to the workforce. Yes, she is on my mind all the time and I am so very afraid that my milk supply will drop. I've only got at max, enough frozen supply for 2 days.

On the very first day of work, I ordered fernugreek extract and mother's tea from iHerb.com worth $130. Very kiasu hor? Just in case my supply drop lor. Currently I am only expressing 100 mls per pump and Larissa is feeding on 130 mls per session leh.

I think I must really pump more. I shall have to pump in the morning before I go to work and at night after she sleeps.

Its really tough being a breastfeeding mom!

Anyway, if you decide to order from iHerb.com, you can use DOH681. This is a one time $5 discount. Oh, there is also free international shipping for orders above USD60. Take a look at the following items that I bought. The reviews are very good and I too, will post up my reviews once I receive my stash and start consuming them.

Organic Mother's Milk


Fenugreek Extract

I hope this will help all you working mothers out there who are afraid that your supply will drop!

How can I forget to mention my darling daughter, Larissa? She is doing very well without me, too well in fact. Makes me feel like I'm only her milk cow and she don't really give a damn as long as she gets her milk. Grrr.....

Here a photo of her doing very well without me, taken by my hubby.

Separation Anxiety Is Setting In!

I fear that once I go to work, I will not be determined enough to express my breast milk everyday for Larissa.

I fear that Larissa will be uncomfortable without me around.

I fear that my MIL will spoil her.

I fear so many things.

I think I am driving myself crazy. Gosh!

I feel like crying. Just the thought of leaving my baby.

I know its for the best but I really don't like the idea of leaving my baby to my MIL.

SOBS

New Job

I got a job offer today and the company is one that is only a few bus stops away from my husband's place. The basic is only 1.6k before comission. Of course I accepted the job.

Right now as I lie in bed, i worry about having to leave Larissa at home while I go to work. I'm worried that my supply of milk will not be adequate for her. I'm worried that my MIL will spoil her. I'm afraid that she might forget me and not be as close to me as she is.

I want to call the company and tell them I don't wanna work anymore! Sighs. Like that how? I feel like crying..

If only I married a man rich enough to let me be a stay at home mom. Sighs....

New Job

I got a job offer today and the company is one that is only a few bus stops away from my husband's place. The basic is only 1.6k before comission. Of course I accepted the job.

Right now as I lie in bed, i worry about having to leave Larissa at home while I go to work. I'm worried that my supply of milk will not be adequate for her. I'm worried that my MIL will spoil her. I'm afraid that she might forget me and not be as close to me as she is.

I want to call the company and tell them I don't wanna work anymore! Sighs. Like that how? I feel like crying..

If only I married a man rich enough to let me be a stay at home mom. Sighs....

Still on the search

It's been close to 3 weeks since I quit my job and I'm still on the hunt for a job.

Staying at home has caused me and my husband to quarrel more than ever before and I'm actually starting to detest him.

What's worse is seeing my FIL slack at home doing nothing. It's really irritating to see a man who just don't want to hold down a job. All he does is sleep on the sofa in the living room or go out and drink. Did I mention that he never bothers to wash up after eating? He will rush to be the first to have his dinner and just leave his plate on the sink. So bloody ireitaring!

Anyway, I went for an interview last Friday and I think that job is perfect for me. I have a direct bus there from my husband's place and not to mention that the manager is cute as well. I'm still waiting for a reply from them which I think will probaby be tomorrow. In the meantime, i've got an interview tomorrow and another one on Thursday. I do keep my fingers crosses though.

Larissa has been constipated for the past one week or so. I thought that breastfeed babies shouldn't be constipated but somehow mine is. I think I'll have to bring her to the doctor soon.

Absurd!

The most absurd thing happened yesterday. My FIL tried to borrow $150 from me! FYI, my FIL is a gambler. Only a few days ago, he informed my MIL that there might be loansharks coming up to splash paint. His excuse? He was gaurantor for somebody else's loans. My MIL was livid. From what I heard, this is not his first time giving the excuse of being a guarantor and they all know that he was the one who borrowed the money.

Yesterday morning, someone came to knock the door at 8am in the morning. My FIL let him in and they talk a bit about horses (thats what he loves to gamble) and my FIL kept mention 18th of March. I think he meant that he will pay the guy on 18th of March.

Apparently, this man lives around this area and my FIL has been borrowing money from him. Sighs. Oh, did I mention that my FIL is out of job?

He is one ridiculous man. He wants a job that does not require him to carry heavy load, work for a few hours a day only and gives him a van or lorry to drive home. So for the past one year, he has been job hopping. Either because working hours is too long, no transport to drive home or no cpf contribution. He tried a new job recently and gave up after 2 days so he is currently at home shaking leg.

And, he is the kind of man who will scold my MIL using vulgarities. Damn, I really don't like him. Even my MIL loathes the sight of him.

Worse of all, he always come home stinking of liquor and still asks to carry my baby. I can't say no coz he's my FIL so I will ask my hubby to tell him that baby wanna sleep already.

Back to the topic, he bloody well knows that I am out of a job and yet he has the face to borrow money from me! When all he does is stay home shake leg! I don't think he is going to return the money to the man anyway, more like he is gonna go gambling (Horse races on Wednesday).

I haven't seen a man so useless in my life. I'm being very mean but I curse that he get banged down by a car while crossing the road in his drunken stupor. Even my MIL curses him so it should be alright I guess. LOL.

 Oh, I did not lend him any money. I don't like to even talk to him. Men like him don't get my respect. The only reason I haven't flared my temper at him is coz he is my husband's dad.