Friday, April 24, 2009

Tummy Showing?

I think my tummy is showing already...A lady actually offered her seat on the train to me. OMG! I was like...WTF?!

Damn...how am I gonna fit into any wedding gown on my big day?

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I hate my manager!

Yes, I hate him. Period.

We nickname him the "Mole". Any guesses as to why we call him that? Okay. Let me explain.

Firstly, he looks moley. lOl...his sort of balding head and his slightly protruding teeth resembles that of a mole. Oh, sorry to mention this - he has got a cleft lip and it showes his teeth even more.

Secondly, he is as deaf as a mole or he pretend to be deaf. Which, is irritating. He can't seem to understand what I am trying to get through his stick skull. Damn brainless. For those of you who don't know, a mole is both deaf and blind.

Thirdly, moles dig tunnels underneath the ground and is seldom seen. My manager is in hiding most of the time and you can never find him when you really need him.

Now, why do I hate him?

1. He shirks from responsibility. Yes, he is trained in the art of Taiqing all the work to all the other people around him, including me. He throws every single thing to me, no matter I am supposed to do it or not. Even stuff that are considered confidential and that I am not supposed to get involved in!

2. He whines. Yes, you heard me right. He whines like a baby. We work on level 6 but he always runs to the pantry at level 4 to whine to the people in the operations department!

3. He procrastinates. Always! Even when we are in the middle of a court case and the lawyer needs his input to fight the case.

4. He pushes all blame to me! For everything big and small, it will be "Ivy this, Ivy that!"

I hate him! Enough said!

Depression

Hormonal changes in me are causing me to go all weird.

I can't seem to be able to control my emotions and will get angry or cry at the smallest stuff. I am losing control over myself.

I think my hubby to be is bearing the brunt of things. I'm becoming more and more outspoken as in voicing out at any injustice or just things that irk me.

Thoughts of the future frighten me so much that I am frustrated. Knowing that what we earn now is not enough for ourselves, not to mention a baby. He tries to comfort me, saying that we can make money slowly. But, can a baby grow up slowly?

I think one may say that I think far too much and worry for things that have not happened but aren't we supposed to think ahead and prepare yourselves for what might happen? Isn't that why people buy insurance or put aside some savings?

He cannot tolerate a two minute talk about our future and tries to avoid the topic. Is this what men are all about? Avoiding the topic and then later claim to be thinking about the matter?

All he makes me feel is that he is avoiding the topic, not thinking about the future and just doing whatever he feels is right. Sighs..

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I hate my Father-In-Law!!!

He is the one who taught my hubby to be such a loser!

Such a bad example! I hate him! A man who only knows how to talk and do nothing.

My mother-in-law asked him for money for our wedding, he can say he got no money and yet ask for 5 tables for his friend. What kinda fucker is that?

He aint gonna get no respect from me. You want respect? You gotta earn it. Don't expect to be respected just because you're senior. I tell ya what, Fuck IT!

Stop being a fucker who only knows drinking and gambling. Its time for you to wake up your idea. You wanna be a proud father? Show that you can do it and not be some mother fucker!

I absolutely loathe people like that!

Imagine me living with him? I'm already trying to keep my mouth shut about him. Trying to give him that little respect I have for him as my father-in-law. You reckon I'll keep my mouth shut for long?