Have you ever wondered what life would have been like if you chose to do things another way?
I always wondered what life would be like if I did not have Larissa.
I'd probably be living a meaningless life. I'd probably still be clubbing every night, wasting my life away getting drunk and being hung over the next day.
Yes, I was an alcoholic and I dabbled in illegal stuff. Life was all about getting high and not having to think about it at all.
I never thought that a baby can tie me down so much. It feels like she is all to me and without her, I'm nothing.
I stopped clubbing after I had her and somehow, I think her not being able to sleep throughout the night is god's way of keeping me grounded. Though I still meet friends for an occasionally drink it two, I make it a point to get home before midnight.
Somehow, I feel that Larissa has inherited all the best of me. She is the most generous kid that I know, she always shares and makes it a point to ask people around her if they want something she's holding onto. If she does snatch something from another kid, all I have to do is to remind her that she needs to share and she will give it up.
I always think of life without her and I admit that I do miss single life but I wouldn't want it another way. I am thankful to have her even though it means that I have to deal with that useless piece of crap she calls daddy.
The only regret I have is actually getting married. I should have just had Larissa without getting married.
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