On 28th of June 2010, my beloved friend, Candy Kwek, passed away in a road traffic accident involving a lorry.

Dear Candy, I hope you are in God's arms now. You are greatly missed by all who know you. Your smile, your cheerfulness and everything about you.

God called you to His side because He loves you too. I pray that God has lifted all your pain and you are now in heaven with Him, surrounded by your favourite pink colour and Hello Kitties.

Only 21 years old, its a bit early but God has better plans for you as you are now living an eternal life. Please say hi to Lawrence up there. God must have called him back early so that he will be there to take care of you.

Please watch over your sister and your parents from above. They miss you badly. They never had the chance to see you for the last time but fret not, for we will meet again when the time comes. We will reunite in heaven, in God's arms.

Larissa has mastered the skill of clapping!

I feel like I have failed Larissa as her mother. She is already 6 months and 2 weeks only but she has only tried a few different kind of pureed food. Namely, pear, apple, sweet potato, white rice cereal and brown rice cereal. I want to pureed the foods and freeze them but there is really NO SPACE in the freezer. Morever, I get questioned by my mother in law when I even mention freezing the foods. Not to mention the fact that she will frown upon me putting a piping hot item into the freezer.

So, I can only make the foods for her on weekends when I am at home. Sighs....

I used to have two younger sisters, now I'm left with one and a half.

My youngest sister - 23 years old - just had her womb and breasts removed yesterday in a hospital in Thailand. Operation fully sponsored by my mother.

Somehow, this just shows how my mom dote on her so much that she has gone overboard.Which mom in her right mind will sponsor her daughter's womb and breasts removal operation?

Somehow, I feel sorry for my sister. She is now a transvestite.

In my opinion, I don't think such surgeries will make her any more "man" than she was previously since she was always asking mommy for money anyway and has never held down a job for more than 3 months.

Anyway, I will wait and see. I wanna see if she will support my mom when she is old and frail. Since my mom dotes on her so much, its only right that she take care of my mom till her old age, right?

I wanna see how a secondary school drop out, with no skills and being unable to hold down a job for long is going to support my mother - a chain smoker with gambling problems.

Maybe people may think that its not right, but given the way she treats my other sister like shit, I think my mom should have karma or retribution.

She is so biased it sucks to even see how she treats my sisters.

One has to wake up at 4am to work for her, the other one sleeps till 7 before getting up for work. One works till 2pm, the other finished at 1.30pm and they both receive the same amount of salary. Not to mention that one has to work everyday but the other can off as and when she wants.

Seriously? I hate my mom.

I absolutely HATE those girls who can eat, eat, eat and eat without getting fat!!!

I HATE reading blogs where they post pictures of food, food and more food and yet, they are soooo skinny!

God is so damn biased!!

I have a big frame, standing at 1.72m and at my lightest, I was 66kg, which is within the healthy BMI range but I was not skinny! I was still a UK size 12!

ARGH!!!! Now that I am 82kg, I'm a UK size 18! 

How the bleddy hell am I supposed to lose the weight?! When I was a size 12, I was taking only one tiny meal a day! Now that I'm breastfeeding, HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO SUSTAIN MY SUPPLY BY ONLY A TINY MEAL A DAY???!!!

I hate myself for having a big frame, for putting on so much weight during pregnancy!